A time for everything....

As most everyone knows, our house is on the market. We found "the perfect" house & were so excited to, hopefully, sell ours & move out to the country on a couple of acres. Well, somebody beat us to the punch. I was seriously deflated for a few days. My prayer was that the doors will open if it was meant to be. Obviously, it was not...but I didn't want to hear that from everybody else. I heard it about 50x too many. I began to fall in a deeper funk. Then, the lightbulb went on. We have been so, so blessed in our lives. It is so easy to look back on our lives & see where doors were opened & closed & how He brought us through seasons in His perfect plan. When we were newly married, (like married for 3mo) E & I both lost our jobs, within weeks of each other. I remember sitting on the couch in our trailer, (yes, it had a hitch), & I was so depressed...E walked in about an hour after he had left for work...I knew when he walked in that he had also lost his job, (this was the Y2K freakout period). I found a local job, that I loved, but E was unemployed for awhile & I had to be the bread winner. I hated it...he hated it more. We decided that I would quit my job & we sold our few, bigger, belongings & moved to Hillsboro. We were there for a couple of weeks & both found jobs. We stayed in Hillsboro for a couple of years. We both wanted a baby, but were told that I would probably never get pregnant. We were devastated. Shortly before we were supposed to see a fertility specialist... We found out that I was pregnant with M. I look back on that & can see so clearly why God didn't want us to have a baby sooner. We had a lot of growing to do in our marriage. I really feel like the Lord wanted us to focus on each other for a time. Well, E's contract w/ Intel ended & he had just finished school. He ended up getting a job w/ the county, so we moved back home for that position. He was there for 5yrs & another door opened, where he is currently working. I have been so blessed with being able to be home with the kids & having a creative outlet. We have a beautiful home, (it's a giant step from that tiny trailer where I couldn't escape when I was irritated with E...I can't even imagine raising kids in a place that tiny. Gosh, I remember venting to my friend, Anj...all I wanted was a bigger place w/ my own space so that I could escape E when he was on my last nerve). We are all healthy. We are happy. I have wonderful children. I have a husband that I am able to say that I honestly do love him more each day. I would love, love to find our "dream home", but really...I can't complain. It's not even fair for me to be depressed about it. So, I feel a perfect peace about it now. We are here for a reason. The doors will open when the time is right. We bought new living room furniture last week. It opens up our living room beautifully. My new favorite thing is sitting in our new, oversized chair & seeing our beautiful view. It's the same view that I've looked at for the past 6yrs, but a different angle. It's amazing how a different perspective changes things. I am so happy that I can look back on my life & see it from different perspectives & see that we have been blessed, even in the times that seemed pretty bleak, He got us through them. I am so thankful!